These Are the Days

Written when Tink was 3 months...

I was feeding my daughter the other day when she popped off, looked up at me and offered the biggest toothless grin and gurgle. I melted. And then... I cried... happy tears. But they were also thankful and grateful tears. Thankful that God is allowing me each day with my daughter. And grateful that he allowed me to have a child, because we didn’t always think that was possible. 

The devil was at work before we ever started trying. We weren’t sure we were going to be able to have kids. And, as a woman who felt she was destined to be a mom, that was a hard pill to swallow. But, we tried anyways.

There are so many people that are in the same waters we traveled, different boats, but same water, and their stories go much differently. People so close and dear to me have not been able to see their children grow in their bellies or in this world as long as they would’ve chosen. But I want you to know, God is still faithful, even when we are being tossed through a stormy sea or drug through a dry wasteland ... HE IS STILL GOOD. 

Do you remember when Jesus knew his destiny? He knew Gods plan for his life was to be crucified on the cross. He knew he would be beaten and tortured and ultimately killed in a painful and excruciating way. Yet he prayed  “Father, if you are willing, take this cup away from me — nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.” Luke‬ ‭22:42‬. 

Do you think if God sat us down, in the beginning of our lives, and told us everything painful we would have to endure, would we still say, “your will be done”? Or would we try to negotiate circumstances? Or would we argue that we can’t handle that much pain, or stress, or heartbreak? Or would we say there’s no way we can carry that weight or that burden?

Each day is a gift and I don’t know how many days God will allow me with my daughter. I pray she has days long past mine. But I choose to cherish each day, even when she’s not sleeping for the 2nd week in a row, or throwing a toddler tantrum, or being a mouthy teenager (y’all remind me I said this later 😆). Because even those days are gifts. 

Those days - I didn’t know I would ever get to experience. 

Those days, I will thank God everyday for. 

I’m praying for you friend. Whether you are in deep waters or trudging through a desert, know that God is good and you are not alone. He will see you through this. You will find joy again.

“For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭43:19‬ ‭NLT‬‬

“For it was you who created my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will praise you because I have been remarkably and wondrously made. Your works are wondrous, and I know this very well. My bones were not hidden from you when I was made in secret, when I was formed in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in your book and planned before a single one of them began.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139:13-16‬ ‭CSB‬‬

xo, A