Finding Less of Me

  I prayed for this. I look at my overflowing laundry basket and think, I prayed for this.  I listen to sweet giggles as she plays in the tub and think, I prayed for this.  Dinner needs to be cooked, dusting to be done, counters to be wiped, toilets need to be cleaned… and then I stop myself to just rest in this moment. I prayed for this and look how incredible my God is.  I am constantly in awe of God and his goodness and how he continues to give even when I’m not worthy of these gifts.  And if I’m being honest, there are days when these gifts don’t feel beautiful.  There are days these gifts feel like what they look like - never ending laundry, piles of dishes,    mountains I don’t feel strong enough to climb.  Those are the days I need to reach out to my Father to ask him for a new perspective. To ask Him to shift my focus. So that whatever I’m doing, whether cleaning play doh out of my rug, or making the 50th snack of the day - I do it wi...

  As I was browsing social media on NYE, a     childhood friend of mine posted a reflection on her past year, and a point she made really lit my soul on fire. She was saying that this past year was incredibly tough on her, and how most people when a new year rolls around say different versions of, “we’ll do better, we’ll be better, here’s to a new year and a new me!”   Instead, her thought was, what if I don’t want to lose this part of me? What if this messy, softer version of myself is someone I want to carry with me into the new year? Yes, it was a tough year, but I came out on the other side… more beautiful, more vulnerable, more human. You see, we shouldn’t want to lose what the previous year held. Whether that’s sin you want to forget, a gut wrenching loss, change you weren’t ready for, a hard season, money problems, or a diagnosis you weren’t expecting. There’s always something if you’re looking for it, because life is hard, and it’s messy. But, how can we lear...