Finding Less of Me

A few of my close friends and I have started a Bible study and it was much needed. We started it last year when we all agreed that we were missing something in life. We ended up taking a break over the summer, but just recently we picked it back up and started doing a study called "one thousand gifts" by Ann Voskamp. (I would definitely recommend it as a study!) So tonight was our designated meeting time for our study and it really opened my eyes to a situation that happened just last night and I thought I would share with you. So over the last few days, I've been working some long hours at work. We have an event slowly approaching and I've been doing my best to plan accordingly, make fliers, and still do my every day job. On top of that, Justin and I have been working really hard to make our house a home, keep it clean, and do normal house chores. But on top of that, I've been coming home from these long hours at work and cooking meals for us to eat the next da...

Over the last few days I can’t help but realize that Justin and I are approaching our one year wedding anniversary! I can’t believe that we have been married for one whole year. I feel like it just happened yesterday. But I can’t help but think about all the things I have learned in this year of marriage and I thought I would share… Marriage is not easy – it takes a lot of work. Justin and I dated for almost six years before we got married, so we knew each other, but we had never lived with each other. I like organization, coming home to a clean house, and if it’s not clean, it has to be clean before I can relax. Justin, however, has an organized mess way of thinking. He likes to lay everything out so he can see it and know where it is. Which leads me to the next thing I learned… Compromise. My mother always told me to pick my fights, because you can’t fight about everything or you will never be happy. It’s true. So maybe I don’t like the mess, but I also don’t like to fight....

I'm such a control freak in my life and I LOVE To have a plan (ask any of my friends). I love to have a  plan for anything and everything that's going on in my life. I love to have notes from past plans, and I love to have notes for future plans. It's what keeps my life organized and efficient. With that being said... life doesn't work that way (Wahhh). Sometimes life throws things at you that you aren't ready for. Sometimes things happen to us that are beyond our control. They are things that no matter what we do, it's not going to change the situation. These things can be negative, they can be heartbreaking, they can be serious, or even petty minor things. But at the end of the day - it affects you. There's a Bible verse, and I'll post it below, but it talks about the struggles we go through, and how our struggles only make us stronger. This is important for us to remember because God DOES NOT put us through things, so he can watch us suffer. He pu...

You can call me crazy but today I found myself driving home from work and longing to call somebody... But not just anybody, I wanted to call God. I had had a day full of blessings and I wanted to call him and thank him for them.  Have you ever felt like you wanted to physically talk with God like you would your parents or your friends or other people that are close to you and your life. It's hard when we feel like we can't physically talk to somebody but God has ways of talking to us. What's your way of communicating with God? Is it complaining about how cold you are in this winter weather and then feeling a burst of sunshine? Is it worrying about a company problem and then God taking care of it while you were sleeping? Is it worrying about food on your table and then your mom shows up to come take you out to lunch?  I think God has many ways of communicating with us, even though it may not be something we can hear it's definitely something that we can see and som...

Ok so this blog is going to be from the heart becase it is genuinely a spur-of-the-moment piece. I was sitting in our living room last night just venting to Justin about everything I feel is going "wrong" in my life. (and yes, I realize I have a great life, but sometimes it's a whole lot easier to focus on the bad than the good) So, as we were talking, I realized that I use the phrase "If I could just... (fill in the blank here...)" sooooo often! It seems like everytime I get stuck in a spot I don't like, I find some excuse for getting out. It's like I have to pin down the problem, and sometimes, I just don't know how. Now, I don't know if you have ever found yourself in the "If I could just's...", but it's time for us to step away from - If I could just finish school - If I could just find a job - If we could just get married - If I could just make more money - If I could just find a boyfriend - If I could just move out...

Ok so I've been guilty and haven't posted in a while, and trust me, it's not because I'm not inspired, it's just because I haven't had the time. But the other day I was reading my devotional and I had a point hit me really hard, so I thought I'd share. Have you ever heard somebody say that you should "fear God"? I've heard it all of my life and I have never quite understood it. To fear something is to be afraid of something in my vocabulary. But when I think of God, I think of someone strong, mighty, someone who is always there for me and will always always relieve my stress when I feel like the world is caving in. And that description sounds more like a comforting family dog than someone I should be afraid of. But then the other day when I was reading my devotion, it said that you are not supposed to fear God or be afraid of Him, because if we were afraid of him we wouldn't talk to him daily, we wouldn't want to be around him, and ...