Finding Less of Me

Marriage, marriage, marriage.... Who isn't getting married? It seems like every time I sign into my facebook account, someone else is engaged, someone else has set a date, someone else has a beautiful ring on their left hand, and not that it's a bad thing - but is it the right thing? For me, marriage is something very sacred and I pray every day for God to prepare me and guide me into my marriage. But I was finding that through all my wedding plans, I was forgetting the most important part - God. How could I forget someone so sovereign, gracious, loving, and the one person that has led me up to this point in my life? Frantically, I hit my favorite calming location - Barnes and Noble. I began searching the shelves for answers, something to help me figure out why my perfect wedding plans weren't working out the way I felt they should. And if you haven't been to Barnes and Noble to look at their wedding section - it's unreal. There are books about wedding etiquet...

A few days ago, I found myself at school walking beside the side walk in the grass. I felt as if my human body did not fit on the side walk where my peers were. I saw people strutting, biking, talking on their cell phones, and then, there I was, walking in the grass alone. I felt as if I did not belong. I felt out of place. My body was not where theirs was, nor was my mind. My thoughts and feelings were different and I felt as though I was not of this world. Why is that? The same day, later on, I found myself passing a Bible, that had sat in my glove compartment for years, through my half-cracked window to a man holding a sign that said "homeless, need work, God bless." He had to have known who God was, but maybe there were stories inside that book that he was not familiar with - the book of perfect love, the book of poems, the book of heart-ache, hard times and pain, the book of ultimate sacrifice. A book that might help him get through each day a little easier. And as I...