Miss Worry A Lot

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I have no idea what has gotten into me lately, but I'm a walking time bomb. Little things are worrying me to death and it's like I can't get them out of my head. It doesn't matter what they are.. they could be an exam, a fight, or an unclean room. I will sit and think about it for hours and just feel incredibly nervous and unsettled inside. I try to pray. I read my Bible. I go to church. I sing worship songs. I do everything I can think of to calm my spirit. But I haven't figured out why I "all of the sudden" have become such a nervous person. I seem to care more about what others think of me than what I think of myself. I worry if people will like me for who I am or if they will just think I'm weird and awkward (which I am at times).
I realize I'm opening myself up to a whole new level of vulnerability, but in all honesty, I just want to find a way to be happy in the life I have. To not worry from day to day about simple, little things. I want to make the people around me happy and not be a debbie-downer at any point in time. I'm usually not the person to have a bad attitude or be unhappy. I'm usually super happy and upbeat, and can always find a silver lining... So, what's gotten into me lately? What's so bad in my life that I bring the people around me down. Why do I worry so much and why is it internally unsettling me?

There's so much encouragement in the Bible about being anxious, and I try to live by it, but its easier said than done. A few of my favorites are:

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34

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Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done." - Philippeans 4:6

I know I need to give my worries to God, and also thank Him for everything he has blessed my life with. I want my life to glow with the presence of God. I want to love without restrictions, laugh without concern, live without regret, and enjoy my life to the fullest extent possible. I guess that means I've got some changes I need to make.

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